yesterday...

went to a very important meeting...
with clokworx...
i noted down every single detail..
about the meeting that is...

ate at giligan's island...
got so full...
and i ate only little...
does this mean...
my stomach is getting smaller?
how i wish...

suppose to watch a movie...
then bowling...
but cancelled..
instead we played around...
with the health machine @mercury drug
haha...
didn't get to try it though...
age was only up to 20...

later on we went to starbucks...
was expecting to get a mocha frappe
but... anthony and i settled for a venti rhumba...
divided into 2 cups...
i drink more than my half...
according to anthony.. hahaha
he's just too slow to ge tthe cup...

like the coffee based than the cream base...
the clokworx people went to miko's condo...
for their pictorial...
bry, nikki, anthony and i were left..
bry and nikki watched a movie..
and anthony dropped me home...

the end...

characters of this story: ferson, hogi, nicco, nikki, bry, mish, drei, miko, anthony and i

i wish i can be someone who can make you proud
without finding it difficult to please you
i wish i can read your mind
to be someone you dream of
i wish i knew what you want
so you wouldnt ask for anything else
i wish i can change
and take out all my flaws
i wish you could see
how hard i try to change
i wish you knew
how much i want to be better for you

a poem full of dilemma
i guess that's what it is
another thought full of drama,
that i have to take out...

sometimes i wonder
"is it really enough?"
even if you try so hard to be everything
you still cant reach that expectation
someone...
everyone has for you.

change...
so easy to say,
but so hard to do...
how could you change something
that isnt only part of you..
but is you...

but if its bad..
you still have to change it...
whatever it takes...
to keep those you love...
love you..
maybe even more...
so not to lose them..
so not to hurt them..
whatever it takes...

1. dont wanna go to school
2. just want to go out and spend my allowance, which is practically gone!
3. been having these headaches
4. have been really addicted to yahoo games
5. i downloaded 2 games that will probably f*ck up my computer

anyways, been out...
been in the house...
nothing can satisfy my boredom...
HELP!

no! I'm sorry...
I'm not gonna have any moments today...
okay okay!
maybe i cant help it...
I'm just this idealisticgirl with her ideas...

they are just thoughts you know...
no one has to cry...
or get goosbumps or anything...

anyways.. i went out...
as usual...
hey! Im a GEMINI!
what do you expect...

A free spirit..
yes I am...

We discovered this video game...
wherein you need to duck and hide...
whe someone is shooting you...

we got to explore PEARL PLAZA!!!
kind sucked.. but...
I found a wall climbing place...

I ate shawarma and sisig...
but my stomach wasnt into eating today...

got to ask a lot of questions...
wanted to ask more...
but i was too />shy
haha... yah i wished...

been craving for more bowling...
but..
eshpenshive.. eshpenshive eh....
hahaha...

nyways, Im glad...
everything started well and ended well...

thank you very much!

hay sus!
is it bad to feel this way?
today, school was cancelled...
and it was a f*ckin nice day...
sunny and all that shit...

I was so scared I would have to lie in bed
and eat my way through the day!
aww man...

but instead I went to text my baby some of my
baby talks...
hoped he wouldnt get irritated...

so...
he called me...
on the phone..
which was something new...
and we talked for a while...
and the conversation ended up
with me going to his place...
to pig out...

so, weve actually spent most of the week...
with each other...
which is kinda scary...
because I dont want any of us getting tired of
being together

although it is enjoyable...
its just scary if you feel
everything you do together
happens repetively...

think about it...